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IMMENSE SELF-CARE TOOL:

Consider this – the voices in your head, the dialogue of critic and victim and fantasist and pessimist aren’t You. When you say “I beat myself up” I don’t believe you mean ‘You’ beat yourself up. The actual You is wise and kind. To me there’s a vital distinction between ME and my committee of voices which chatter away all day in my mind. Headf**k FM I call it. A never-ending radio show of dialogue and opinions and warnings and strategising with different DJ’s around the clock, and it’s been on so loud and so constantly that we have understandably come to believe ‘that’s Me’ saying all this to myself. But it’s not You.
 
Those voices are immature characters that we put in place long ago to mimic our bossy, stressed, ignorant parents and carers because we thought, back then, that we needed that kind of treatment to get things done and succeed in our tasks. That’s what was modelled to us and the insults and labelling we received along the way seemed to be true too, so we now uphold those ‘truths’ we were given and still, years later as adults, live as if those negative, limiting opinions about us are Truth and even keep a cast of demons in our heads to uphold those beliefs with negative self-talk, self-criticism, exasperation, and negative bubble bursting – often really mean.
 
This has immense consequences because we allow those attitudes to dictate what we show up for, what we dare to attempt, what we think we deserve and never question the fact that we decided to live so religiously by these incorrect perspectives when we were only 3, 4, 5, 6, or 7 years old!
 
Your list of beliefs about what is and isn’t ok about you or what you can and can’t do in your life was made by the immature and often panicked child doing the best it could and making some very wrong (yet understandable) conclusions. And then setting them in stone for life.
 
To me, all the beliefs and voices trying to keep that old system in place isn’t really You. It’s the committee of special needs characters we all have in our heads trying to protect us with outdated data, like our own personal cast of One Flew Over The Cuckoo’s Nest that we have to look after. We all move through this life with a retinue of very fragile and reactive characters inside and if we don’t listen to their legitimate needs and if we keep ignoring them or suppressing them, they will eventually attempt to get their needs met by suddenly leaping into our lives in some self-sabotaging crisis. They need attention and presence and just like a child, if it wants attention and doesn’t get it for long enough, it will either smash something or hurt itself or both.
 
Turning towards them and their edgy feelings with curiosity and kindness instead of panic and rejection is what the Tibetan Buddhists call feeding meat to the demons.
 
It has been really helpful for me to clearly distinguish between Me, the lovely kind awake Jamie, from the committee of voices rabbiting away. ‘I’ don’t beat myself up. One of my voices might try it – and this distinction between Me, the kind, awake, present, rational Jamie versus the family of characters, has saved me over and over from the incredibly insidious and invisible way these voices creep in and make me think their values are ‘My’ values and their beliefs are ‘My’ beliefs. It’s helped me to catch them as they try and sneak in and grab the wheel, the mouth, or God help us, the email! I know the difference between Me and them and can therefore often/sometimes turn toward them kindly and ask them what they need. Because each one has a legitimate need behind its anxiety and if I don’t meet it there will inevitably soon be trouble at mill.
 
Being super-conscious of our self-talk is a life-changing step towards self-care and opens the way for us easefully giving ourselves (and each other) so much of what We need. A deeper connection with everyone in our lives, success with our projects, even daring to do them and put them out there in the first place! – and to me, it starts with me noticing my unconscious negative dialogue and pessimistic pathways before they pretend they’re Me.
 

London Feb 2 Transforming Shadows (1-day)
London Feb 3 What About Us (1-day)
Bristol Feb 9 Transforming Shadows (1-day)
Bath Feb 23 Insanely Gifted (1-day)

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This is just a quick clarification because I notice so many folks imagine ‘the shadow’ is the dark side of us, the rage, the neediness, the greed etc. but the shadow is really just all the parts of ourselves we hid away in the shadows when we were shown or told that that aspect of us was unwelcome or shameful. So, yes, things like rage, neediness and greed did go into the shadow because they were totally rejected and forbidden as kids but many other beautiful and essential parts of us received that cruel and ignorant treatment too. This is why I spend my time guiding people towards the shadows. There is SO much low hanging fruit to be reclaimed with almost no effort.

Wonderful treasure we reclaim from ‘the shadow’ includes:

feeling comfortable to take centre stage

enjoying dancing

trusting your instincts

allowing the discovery of failure

allowing oneself (and others) to be messy sometimes

singing and arting and creating

allowing our gifts to be seen and enjoyed

wearing colours

being fully honest with family and friends

self-care

cracking yourself up

being able to release emotion with crying

experiencing the passion of your anger

standing up for yourself, engaging with causes and healing

laughing at ourselves

being generous

allowing others to support us in our vulnerability

being sexy

enjoying all kinds of pleasure…

….the shadow is not just the dark and yucky bits, it’s all the parts of ourselves we learnt at young ages were ‘unwelcome’ or got us rejected or told off.

It take SO little effort and drama to gently turn towards these places and reclaim their treasure….and there’s a lot of sheepish laughter and friendship in it….

What natural parts of yourself did you shut down as a kid? Any of the above list? Let’s welcome them home together….

(1-day Transforming Shadows in London Sat Feb 3rd, Bristol Sat Feb 9th)

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