I’ve been observing my abject terrors and my habit of creating harrowing scenarios in my head imagining worst case scenarios of what’s going to happen (especially in my relationships) and I was considering what could be the hidden ‘gift’ or grace in all this. Someone told me today, (paraphrasing) ‘it’s great to have the amazing skill of getting out of danger but when that skill starts applying itself to shit that isn’t happening, we have a problem.’
Then I remembered how much ‘escaping’ I had to do as a child and how amazing I got at it, physically and mentally too.
I’ve been exploring how each of our ‘demons’ was once an ally we created to support or protect us in an earlier time of need. Re-meeting them and even giving them new jobs really works – ‘cos once we’ve created them, they’re with us for life. Might as well put ‘em to use.