I’ve been going through some intense transition waves of late, really big mofos, and I’ve been doing something that’s really helped and illuminated me in darkest bits.
1. When the big waves come, and they are feelings of strong loss and grief I’ve first said Yes Yes Yes and felt them deeply but also removed the usual labels of Grief and Loss and considered what is this feeling if I take off those words and just experience it as a nameless new sensation? Something shifts.
2. I get a bit fascinated while watching both the feelings and also ‘the one who is feeling them’ lovingly, being fully with the exact moment with whatever is being felt, like a wine taster savouring every atom.
3. Experimenting with a new label. What if I call this Love? What if it’s one of the 10 000 names of God, the 10 000 unique flavours of raw love? What does it feel like now? Better…even…beautiful in a weird way?
4. Be proud of my willingness to allow this and experience it as self-care and something nourishing. Feeling steadfast.